I loved you and you left

As soon as I see her face
It all comes back.
The same feeling
That once lifted my heart, Turns it to black.

Im losing myself
Family says im deppressed.
I miss her so damn much
My happiness is suppressed.

Everyone says I`ve changed
They say I`ve lost joy.
Love is my competition
And I`ve lost to another boy.

I can`t handle to see her
But I`d love to hear her voice.
I miss her so damn much
But she`s made her choice.

Remember YOU left
Not ME.
Miserable at best
Is all I can be.

I just want you to be happy
Even if its with him.
Every since you left
Everything is so grim.

Im not sure love exists
I may be love deprived.
My depressing deprevation
 The Tragedian has arrived.

Im no longer warm.
Bitter ice runs through my veins.
Glaciers in my arteries.
My hearts uncurable pains.

This Clown no longer smiles
Because of haunted dreams.
His impure lifestyle
Is all bursting at the seems.

Tonight I wear the shirt
I wore on our first date.
My logic says stay away
But my heart wants to debate.

My hearts been repoed.
My wounds reopened.
My walls go up, defense mode.
Complete and utter solitude.

You leave me
and want me to remember you.
What if I ripped out your heart
and ejected you?

Im like glass.
Im fragile and can easily break.
You can keep my heart
All it gives is heartache.

I remeber I promised
I wouldnt leave this.
Tear it up and leave
Full of regrets.