"So Weary"

So weary.
So tired.
So sick.
Songs of my mind.
This shit i gotta grind.
Tired of worrying all the time.
My wife accuses me of running around on her.
That's when i pray to god to kill my ass,so i wouldn't have to hear her.
This is my nightmare.
My living,breathing,day in,day out nightmare.
Perverted thoughts drift in and out my head all 24/7.
All i can hope for is that my god forgive thee,and allow me into heaven.
I feel as if i'm drowning in a pool full of sorrow.
Oh my lord,i'm tired of dreading every tomorrow.
I don't look forward to anything life may have to offer me.
If everyone has a destiny,i wish god would hurry it along & reveal it to me.
A man without family is a man alone.
A man without friends is a man without a home.
A man who is complicated is a man who is very much hated.
Waking up every morning,each everyday,i feel so sedated.
It hurts me deeply knowing how much i am hated.
By the fact that in life i have yet made it.
The struggle continues,deep within.
Since age 10 i've always sinned.
That's when i knew better.
That's why to god i write these forgiveness letters.
Yet i still keep on with the sin.
As long as i'm breathing,the sin shall never end.
Migraines kickin' in every day.
Tell many a doctor,they ain't got shit to say.
They prescribe bullshit medications that only work for a short time.
They wear off,i'm no longer feeling fine.
Only pills that work good for me is tylenol pm's for sure.
2 hours later i'm knocked out with no pain,for sure.
When i awaken all that's back is the misery i feel from day to day.
I suppose on that note,that's all i gotta say!!!!