Not Dead, Nor Alive

I seen the signs, but I ignored them
I seen God, but I pushed her away
I seen the Devil and I shot him

Stuck between a rock in a hard place
Living with the dead and staying alive
Stuck in the middle,I have to make a decision

Do I seek a creeping death?
or do I seek having a life...
Truth or dare is where I lie..

Feed in the dark
or shine in the light
Live in the red of fire
or the earth of white...

I'm not living,but I'm certainly not dead...