disgusted

drink this wine and spill your soul let your inhabitations start to unfold. with each sip your head starts to spin entering you in a world of sin. You speak of things never said as you wonder to the bed. Your body unaware of whats in store as your shoes drop to the floor. your in the moment of the worlds unclear as your thoughts start to disappear. you've lost control of the world your in as the room begins to spin. Your caught in mist of some crazy twist. Unaware of what is real for your spirt they begin to steal. Caught in a place you feel disgrace, used abused in such a way that only becomes clear the following day. Whose to blame for this shame? me or you ? what was i suppose to do? kick you out and cause a scene? turn my kindness into mean?Your sneaky like a snake your confessions are so fake . The pain you express left me in such a mess. my mind recalls a time when things were unclear and brought me back to an endless fear. Memories haunt my very soul leaving me empty and out of control. How dare you bring me to tears making me relive my hidden fears of time i just want to go away you brought back to me this very day. How dare you take advantage of me that is not how it is suppose to be. Your darkness shadows my light ! what gives you the right. When i see yur face i can only feel disgrace. You invade my body with your dirty hand your no different than a man trying to push himself on another and you call yourself a mother. Someone who is to be trusted! well i am disgusted. Im not the one to blame you are fuckin insane making me feel dirty and ashamed , yes you are the blame? take your sickness and go away , go ruin some others day.