unorthodox love

I love you so much. You honestly have no idea. I know I am such an asshole sometimes, and I know that I am the worst at expressing things, but Jesus, you took my heart. You honestly just came into my life at a time that I thought I would never be able to attract anyone. I had no faith in myself, and I just didn't love me. You came in here, and you messed me up. I mean you completely messed up my head. You made me fall in love, and then you acted like you didn't want me, and I was done. And then something happened. And you came back. You came back, and picked my up by my heartstrings and rocked my world. It was insane. And if anyone reads this who isn't you, or someone who has gone through this, then they are going to thing I am insane and we are so dysfunctional, but God I love you. and I know I am the worst person in the world at communication, and that I can't show my feelings at all, but they're here. and the amount of love you give me, even after I have been so horrid sometimes, is just astonishing. I just feel so indebted to you. For finding my hand in the tunnel of darkness, and walking with me until the end. It is a lonely life without someone to love, and I just can't explain how amazing it is that you chose to love me. Thank you. Oh my word. Thank you.