new knife

If every time you worry too much about a loved one dying,
it ends up happening,
does your brain have misguided magical powers?
Or did you just let bad shit in?

Cut my wrist at work yesterday.
Think I severed some tendons cuz my thumb don't work right,right now.
It's been difficult to play guitar or jerk off.
An accident but maybe not.
Divine intervention can suck a dick,
cuz good or bad
I just don't fucking like it.

Always thunderstorms in the afternoon in Baton Rouge,
and it scares the puppies and the big ol guys that are usually so fearless,
but I like to stand in it sometimes.
Recite suicidal tendency lyrics and curse the skies.
If the dogs gotta piss or not,
they still come out in the yard and run around with me in it.

It's a lack of desire to accept responsibility
that makes people want to believe in the possibility
of supernatural forces in nature,
but i'm pretty sure my hand is fucked up cuz I'm a drunk,
my mom is dying cuz my fam has that cancer gene
and my dogs just might love me.