by myself

how do I stop this sadness from swallowing me, from wrenching my spirit out of my very soul
leaving me alone to climb mountains with no peaks , swim oceans that are forever deep

endless rapids in a river with no end,  all the street signs stolen I journey forever and stop where I began
clutching at anything the wind buffets my being , screaming for salvation  screaming for screaming

haunted by the ghost of a million bad choices,  haunted by a million done wrong voices
god is not here god is not free , god has turned his back on me

alone I live, alone I die,  alone in the darkness my tortured heart survives
so I ease this pain the only way I know how, I open my veins and let it out

the storm subsides and the darkness recedes, as the drops fall
scattered like rose petals on the ground , glistening crimson glittering sound