Tears to Zzzs

All I want is to be in his arms,
To feel safe again.
I miss waking up to his face every morning.
I was happy,
I miss feeling happy.
Now it feels like I've been knocked back down to square one,
Angry,
Depressed,
Scared,
Confused,
Frustrated,
Negative.
I can't even sleep without him next to me.
The only way I can actually sleep is crying myself there.
It seems like all my so called "friends" aren't my friends.
What is a friend anymore?
Sure as hell isn't the people that think they're my best friends.