Love Slave

I've been a slave all my life
A dumb, pathetic slave
To the one thing that's controlled me
And had hold of me for too long
And that's love

It's mastered my existence
Taken every ounce of strength from me
And then given it back in extreme happiness
But it's always left me weak
I was a fool for love

I felt a strong deep need for it
That void so empty as I filled the gaps with
Any activity to occupy the time and space
Pain in my heart substituted and replaced
All until I found love

One glimpse, one trace
Just a few doses of hope
Sprinkled in my direction, unlocked my desire to give affection
Ice couldn't forever resist warm touch
And I'd cave to love

Every time I'd wear the rose coloured glasses
Believe the best in someone
Ready to fight for them but
No one was ever willing to fight for me
And I lost to love

I spent countless hours to better understand myself
And spent even more to understand hearts that wanted to beat with mine
I learned open communication was the key
But the secret was strong feelings in mutual form
So all I took were falls for love

I became fluent in the language of justification
A skilled performer in the art of leniency
Compromised myself when I knew it was dangerous
Put too much faith and trust in connections
I sacrificed for love

I even believed in security of thinking I could be myself
But it seems that's where the unexpected hits you hardest
Because nobody really likes all of who you are
They just want your good and never your bad
No one wants to work for love

Heart torn from my chest in pieces
Cracking whips on exposed flesh
Submissively I let the blood spill
Immersing myself in "you knew better" floods
I spent my life dying for love

Mutual effort's all an illusion
Same result, regretting heart intrusion
I'll die if I keep doing what I'm doing
But it'll also kill me to stop
I can't win, so I won't be a slave to love anymore

No more heart submission
Or subservience to strong passions within
Emotional flow only takes you under if you let it
I'm tired of currents leading me to pain
I want to forget how to love

Now I know it's better kept in dreams
Because all the happiness that's coming
Won't ever be anything true
I may not like reality's view
But I've got to destroy this need for love

I'll tell myself it's a desire
Until I convince myself it's less than a want
I know I may never have ultimate fulfillment
So hope and belief has to go
I'll find other uses for love

The dream was sweet while it lasted
But maybe this heart is made for everyone else's benefit
I'll help others inject love where they need it
Be happy that some people can have what I can't
And I'll break free from chains of love

I'll give emotions with limits
Because it's the only way to live
So unnatural, a silent death of me
But essential to maintain sanity
I can't stand this hate of being a slave for love