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Laying A While

I must like to die inside
Because I fight too hard
I lose myself
To the battles I'll never win
I must like how it feels to bleed
Because I let my blood spill freely
I venture in places that
Will only leave me sliced and broken
I must be addicted to the pain
The disappointment of nothing to gain
I claim to like pouring my heart out
Maybe I just like to watch it break
I'm so irresponsible
Just an idiot with my heart
Smart in the head
Yet sacrificing when I know best
Driving drunk through life
High on my pathetic need for love
I give it all until
I'm deemed unworthy of receiving
Why did they put a heart in my chest
When I don't know what to do with it
I can't handle the beat like a pro
Maybe I should let the rhythm go
Stop the obsession
With how to get it right
Accept that I'm foolish
And not bother to try
Guess I must crave that worthlessness
An excuse to abuse myself
To remind me that I'll fail good
And that my efforts will never be enough
Maybe I have nothing better to do
Than to dwell in my sorrows and self blame
I suppose we're all entitled
To lay a while in our bed of mistakes
Right now I feel attracted
To the shards of glass falling down my face
Oh it burns like acid rain
But maybe it will dissolve my skin
Eat away each damage
To recreate new image within
So that I may reemerge awake and refined
By heart break and loss no longer defined
WoundedHeart
Written by WoundedHeart
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