Better Than Me

Life gets harder the longer I go on
It twists and turns, knocking me down with no chance to get back up.
Mocking and laughing it watches me drown.
Life deserves better than me,
it tells me so daily.

Tossing and turning, all my mistakes are thrown back at me.
Always on the edge of collapse, I fight.
I can't walk, I crawl. Getting kicked in the guts the whole way.
I'm the bane of my parents existence, the deserve better than me,
they tell me so daily.

Brief respites from this hell are just smoke and mirrors,
An illusion watching and waiting for the perfect moment,
for the perfect moment to come crashing down,
crushing me in its wake.
I deserve better than me,
I tell myself so daily.