Stop. (mind screaming anxiety into the dark)

Stop it.
Stop it.
Stop it,  stop it, stop it stop it stop it!
She's not there!
She didn't care
Enough to give a chance.
You're left alone on this empty dance
And the world is falling down
Until you're staring at the ground
Surrounded by shades of brown
And you can't understand how
This helps in any way
Not knowing what to say
Not knowing why nothing said
Is going to fix anyone's head
Until my eyes are streaked with red
And the night thoughts leave it all dead.
I need to sleep
But I can't sleep
I can't even think
Straight.
Right now
My heart
Is pounding hate
With no access to the medicine
Of her sanity bringing grin
And I feel I'm being forbidden
From being allowed in...
As if I'M being punished for another's sin.
Stop. Stop. Stop.  STOP.  STOP!

I feel like I'll never sleep again....