glass box trilogy

well here i am left in the corner...where i was left the last time, but then i had a choice and now...i guess all i can do is wait...but what am i waiting for, i know in the last i said freedom, but now...i feel that i am waiting for something more greater than the freedom i yearn for...could i be waiting to be taken to the higher place, could i be waiting for the time when the darkness will make a pathway for me out, or what is it? something has me blocked, something has me trapped, but right now all i can do is sit in the corner and wait,just maybe i'm waiting for someone to say the word, "your free",your will has been broken, or maybe, i will give you a second chance, but to me hearing those words is like hearing... "your free but we still have control over you and don't forget the leash that is still around your neck, when we let you go...you make one fatally move, we will drag you back and keep you trapped... and this time you'll never see the light of day ever again", so literally they will set me free but still be watching my every move, hearing my every sound,my breath and my thoughts...i'm not even safe if i get free of this box, im not even safe in my own head, i guess there is no point in hoping for freedom, really...i don't know what to hope for anymore...stay in the corner...stay where i'm partially safe, i guess ill just stay in this prison...just stay here in this place , that they make me call home, in this...glass...box