Social Worker To Save

I've finally figured out why I want to be a social worker more than anything, why I specifically want to work with child protective services.

I want to be a social worker to save a little 7 year old from waking up before everyone else, grabbing a knife, and thinks about suicide and if their little body has the strength to shove that sharp metal into their body, just so they can die. So, I can save a child from wanting to die before they have a chance to live.

I want to be a social worker because I want to save a little 8 year old from thinking everyone hates them, and they're better off anywhere but home, even though they're terrified of trying to survive on their own. I want to save a child from wanting to run away from home, just because they don't feel wanted anymore, they're better off missing.

I want to be a social worker because I want to save a little 9 year old from thinking they deserve to be abused, that the pain of that is all the world has to offer to them. I want to save a child from thinking that when they get hit, choked, shoved, any of that, they think it's the only love there is. I want to save a child from abuse they shouldn't ever know


I want to be a social worker because I want to be able to save a 10 year old from thinking they have to lie to stay in their home, even when they don't want to be there anymore, because they are terrified of the unknown, they accept the pain as their own. I want to save a child from thinking change is bad, I want to help a child realize that the world is better than the life they were given.

I want to be a social worker because I want to save an 11 year old from being terrified of their legal guardians, but terrified of not having them. I want to save a child from the fear they shouldn't have.

I want to be a social worker because I want to save a 12 year old from thinking maybe alcohol is the highlight of life, they think it makes people happy. I want to save a child from an impending addiction because it's all they've ever seen. I want to save a child from growing up in that world before they're even supposed to know it existed.

I want to be a social worker because I want to save a 13 year old who finds life better because they don't have a lot of guidance. I want to save a child who learns how to be alone when they shouldn't be.

I want to be a social worker because I want to save a 14 year old from thinking life is better with everyone else, but they shouldn't be in it. I want to save a child from planning out their suicide and hiding everything they feel, just so no one knows what they are up to, so no one can help them in time. I want to save a child from scars they could carry the rest of their life, just because they have to hurt themselves because everyone else has. I want to save a child from ending their life, and still before they've had a chance to live.

I want to be a social worker because I want to save a 15 year old from attempting suicide for the first time, and wishing they hadn't been found in time to stop swallowing the medication. I want to save a child who has to feel the pain, see the disappointment, when everyone finds those cuts, and knows how far that pain has gone. I want to save a child from immediately wanting to try again, they still have yet to really live.

I want to be a social worker because I want to save a 16 year old from dropping out of high school, and deciding that they're ready to move out, just to get away from their home because they can't take the pain of it anymore. I want to save a child from the blemishes they could put on their life because they didn't grow up in an environment they should have. I want to save a child from the most pain they could experience, even compared to home. I want to save a child from darkness.

I want to be a social worker because I want to save a child from witnessing the horrors of drugs, alcohol, abuse, homelessness, hunger, anger, pain, death of their life, I want to save a child from dying in the inside. I want to save a child and put them somewhere where they will be happy, loved,
Cared for, warm, I want them to live a life that I didn't, and I want them to live a life that others couldn't have. I want their life to go in the way it should. I want to save a child from having to write everything I have, and just did, and have the experience to know what it's like. I want to help a child see a beauty in the world that I didn't. I want them to not be so full of darkness, trauma. I want to save them like so many children don't get. I just want to make a difference.