Painfully Numb

Admission without subscription.  
You are my prescription, my addiction.  
You have my permission and tuition
as I sit in remission.  
Life situation of tension.
I've no connection or affection.
In your eyes a pension.
I follow this intuition.
Our souls are so hollow.
How could you not know,
Now you have to swallow  
All your hope
And pain
Pride...
and gain
To obtain silence
A Numb from within
It's a sin for pleasure
But I'm just a number
I cant remember  
My family
Love
Or any other
Thought I was so clever
Nothing lasts forever
Back in September through October
That's when it was all over
I thought I could recover
This endeavor puts in perspective
How unperceptive  
My heart is rotting in this cage
This body's dying, nothing left to save
I take it in my hand  
Tie my arms as you inject
Flowing through me I suspect
This is it, I'm in your debt