YOU HAVE TO WAIL

So, they found you lying    
on the bathroom floor  
You invited death    
and locked the door    
The blame's on me    
it's all my fault    
    
Your face was blue    
your intentions untold    
a kiss goodbye    
would be your last word    
Your eyes staring beyond the space    
     
A needle was still    
atached to your skin    
people wondering    
of where you have been    
It's been a few hours that you've entirely gone    
     
Half naked,      
livid,    
slow throbbing heart    
So sad,    
quiet and blank    
maybe it was fear drawn on your face    
     
Your unfortunate finder,    
brother in blood    
he yelled 'mom!',    
she said 'what?'    
Misery's sudden visit and laugh    
     
A smokey spoon with drops of lime    
They didn't get    
there on time    
condoling lines..His will is unknown    
     
Was it God's lack    
of angels' need?    
Was it the evil giving deamons a treat?    
Or was it Fate, this fucking whore?    
     
"His liver's sick remains", they claim    
It 's  adulterated heroin in his vain!    
What the hell are they looking for?    
     
The clock has stopped    
My life's on hold    
I was often crazily  being told: "You should have died instead of him"    
     
I know this church..    
..it's where I said 'YES'    
holding some purple lilies..    
..holding him    
     
The churche's gate    
A broken frame    
A scream..GET UP!!    
No answer back    
A marble grave and a broken dream    
     
Sweet suicide..if only I...    
No, nevermind..    
I'd better hide..    
No, I wanna die..    
You mother fucker, tell me why!    
     
A car's bumper is creeping up    
I wished I'd soiled it with my blood    
but someone grapped my skinny arm    
     
     
     
It's getting dark    
and I can't sleep    
no matter how hard I try    
     
It's getting dark    
and I'm falling in love    
with the silence of the night    
     
Don't speak to me    
Get out of here    
I want no living anywhere near    
     
     
I don't exist    
so I won't be missed    
but then I change my mind    
I run and run    
but I won't leave    
I wish I could rewind    
     
I pretend that there're ghosts in my room    
and one of them is you    
     
I pretend you hear me and I'm asking you    
..what now..what should I do?    
     
My poison is not enough  
I think it'll never be  
until I fly    
towards the sky..    
until my own O.D.