High Fences

I feel dark today
but where's the change in that?
Stayed in bed today
how can I make sense of that?
It was sunshine today
but in my head it rained
I'm so tired today
but where's the change in that?

I feel wrong today
but where's the change in that?
Couldn't cry today
how can I make sense of that?
I stayed curled in a ball
sometimes I feel small
I'm so tired today
but where's the change in that?

Everything's exhausting
even writing these words down
& just what is it costing
to keep wearing this crown
made of darkness
made of distance
high fences & resistance
If I don't want to die alone
at some point
I have to unlock my home.

I feel low today
but where's the change in that?
I'm a big black hole today
how can I make sense of that?
Is there more to me
than feeling this lonely?
I'm so tired today
but where's the change in that?

Everything's exhausting
even writing these words down
& just what is it costing
to keep wearing this crown
made of darkness
made of distance
high fences & resistance
If I don't want to die alone
at some point
I have to unlock my home.

I feel nothing today
but where's the change in that?
Talked to no one today
how can I make sense of that?
I just want to smile
but I'm so fucking sad
I'm so tired today
but where's the change in that?

Everything's exhausting
even writing these words down
& just what is it costing
to keep wearing this crown
made of darkness,
made of distance
high fences & resistance
If I don't want to die alone
at some point
I have to unlock my home