Disarray

My hearts begging me, yeah it’s begging me to leave, but my mind can’t control this extreme diversity between trying once more and walking away, my emotions are in complete disarray.
Hey, remember that time you told me you would change, yeah well just like I expected you neglected it and left it a stray, this shits like a Ferris wheel that just won’t end, its driving me around the god dam bend, no matter what I say or do you carry on acting like some fool, let me tell you that I’m no tool, so don’t try using me or I will become real fucking cruel.
Fuck you, Your trying to blame me, saying it’s all in my mind, are you fucking crazy? Do You really think I’m enjoying this shit roller coaster ride. You’ve got me sitting here contemplating suicide, lets be real no matter hard we try our love just aint going to amplify, ahh fuck I just wanna die, what do you do when you love a guy, but you just can’t stop the arguing and suspicions that keep peaking up all the time, I think love should be a crime, if I hadn’t met him, I wouldn’t be writing this rhyme.