Bitter Taste

It’s been a hard lesson
To learn who you are
And what you are about
I wonder how I could have
Mistaken such clear evidence
In favor of the romantic
Meanderings of an innocent
Heart

I am such a child
I am such a fool
I am so dumb
I am so young at times
Younger than my age
A strand of silver in my hair
But if have never truly lived

I think I have always known
Deep inside just who and
what you are and where
I fit In the grand scheme of things
At least, I like to tell
Myself that when if feel
Embarrassed and hurt
I choke back the bitter laughter
That so often turns to tears

You are my torment
And you are my release
You are the devil himself
On the edge of my dreams
And it wears me out to dance
This dance but I can not stop
Too much unsaid, unfinished
Unfilled keeps me here
With head bowed

What happened to the woman
Who would dare anything
Who would risk wrath and stars
And storm and sea
Where did she go and who is
This shadow who has taken her place
Speak out I hear myself say
And yet I hold my tongue
And hate myself the holding

Ginger spice and cinnamon
And all tasty things cannot
Compare to the taste of
New desire awakened
In the heart of a woman alone too long
And lemon lime the tartness
Of her disappointed dreams
Why can I not share with you
What is truly in my heart?
Because I know you do not care

And never will