figure me out

I am annoyed that you figure me out
You may be confused at what you find out
Truth be told;
I'm surprised to see it myself
 
I am weary through this transition
The weight of the world on my shoulders
Not knowing where life has me going--
Knowing;
I am broken
Unwhole, unwell,
Small little fraction of my former self  
 
I am disappointed;
Not in life, but in me
Time I can't take back
Past I cannot change
Words I never said or never heard  
Roads I missed
Turns that took me straight off-course
Disappointed faces  
The ones I hurt or just let down  
Unfinished business  
More loose ends than I can count  
Regret;
Every commitment that I never finished  
All of my wrongs I never admitted  
 
Checking out;  
My biggest regret--
Dishonesty
My only lie right in plain view--
I'm not as strong as I led you on
I've been holding on but I'm starting to slip
My wounds are still raw and I'm losing my grip--
Exposing it all is a frightening risk
I've been hiding so long, I'm unsure of it
A stranger these days to myself--
That's why I'm amazed
That you figure me out