I break hearts

I break hearts 
I broke his 
I broke mine when I broke his 
I loved him 
He was my life 
I've tried to love again 
To forget him 
My heart never healed 
It's still broken 
But I've tried to move on 
I thought I was fine till he came back 
With HIM 
I don't like HIM 
I got jealous 
They broke up
He came back to me 
I cried 
He asked me to run away with him this summer 
I said yes 
So I'm sitting here packing my clothes 
Waiting on him to pull up on his car 
To take me away 
For my birthday 
Happy birthday to me
It's going to be fun 
Just me and him and his parents 
I can't wait
He is gonna break my heart again 
I still love him 
Im not moving on 
I'm stalling 
I'm gonna break my boyfriends heart 
I don't want to 
But if Matt ask
I'm gonna say yes 
I can't lose him again 
I'm scared 
I don't want to 
But I do 
I break hearts 
It's inevitable 
I don't want to hurt him 
But I love Matt 
And I think I love my boyfriend 
I tell him I do 
Does that mean I lie to him 
No No No
I'm not lying
I do love him 
I don't know who I love more 
I'm scared 
I dont want to break hearts anymore 
I want to heal them 
I'm done packing 
I'm done breaking hearts 
I'm done hurting people