New Love

I awake beside you
And our sheets
Smell of sex and weed
Our shallow breaths
Smell of alcohol
As your fingers caress my cheek
My hair is a mess
our sex is the best
Yet,
Your mind is stressed
Our heads are such a bloody mess
I'm sorry
We couldn't pass the test
I'm sorry
Last night was a disaster
I'll make it up to you--
Hold you tight
Until our love flares bright
I could never fight
With a beautiful soul such as yours
Turn off the light,
Come back to bed
The night is only young
Our lives together won't begin
Until we have read the lines within
I see the truth,
I see you
I saw through his lies
I've said goodbye
I've cut the ties
And now I'm ready to try
For a brand new love, not a lie
It's over this time
I haven't grieved my past love
His time has been up
For the longest of times
Ive put up with the pain 
I'm so ashamed
And now he won't shut up,
I've had enough
He's in my head so much
I wish I was dead
I lay in my bed 
Trying to shed my thoughts
Of him again
There was once a time 
I wasn't afraid of his voice
And he seemed
So insignificant
But now, I'm a machine
I desire to be a slave to your every command
But although he demands by presence,
I won't go back to being his peasant 
I'm sick and tired of this life,
He gave it to me as a present
I've thrown it away
And I bet he grieves everyday
Over our love when he was the one
Who never stayed
He's in the past now.
Im with you,
We're bound to last
Loving him was a task,
With you, it's effortless
I'll love you like no other
Keep you safe,
As a lover,
Not a bother
Don't you dare ponder
If I leave.
I'll be here