Heart Pain

I don't know what's happening anymore,
I don't understand what's going on, but you haven't been the same lately.
Really, just tell me what did I do wrong?.
Can't you see that you're killing me?.
But, I guess it's not important,
You're just a boy with his own thing going on,
And I'm just a fool who's willing to stay here and wait for you.
You don't have any idea at all of what you do to me and I guess you just don't care.
It's not fair for me to be treated like a stranger,
Never really understood this, but I'm not stupid so I get it.
There's really nothing else for me to do other than be blue.
I'm hopelessly devoted to you, but I guess it's just me.
You see I do my best to keep you satisfied,
Try to keep you by my side, but I guess that's not good enough.
I do whatever it takes,
My body gets the shakes when I'm not with you.
I have zero strength, no oxygen.
Just caught in the trap of love and I can't get out because I love you too much to.
Why can't you see the things that you do to me?,
I can't take this stuff no more, but I don't feel like walking through that open door.
I love you, I hate you,
I want to kiss you, I want to kick you.
You drive me crazy.
So sick from this, feeling like a junkie who's in need of a quick fix.
These are the kind of tricks that make me want to cry While at the same time I'm wrapped around your finger, caught up in your love affair.
You push me further away then at the same time bringing me in closer.
Not sure if it's love or lust, but feels too damn good to leave.
You probably enjoy seeing me go back and forth from doing this.
So tell me, are you willing to put up with me?.
to be comfortable with my craziness?,
to be immune to my consultations?,
to be able to love me no matter what?,
to never grow tired of me? Or will you be too scared to even stay awhile longer?.
I guess things wont ever be the same,
I guess that's why I have heart pain.