Cancer

This    
Crushing
Piercing
Weight
of you

Now breaks
and tears at my spine
This lack of breath
in my lungs
provided by you
just digs away at my lies

Why must this tearing
Break us inside
The way we never
wanted to be

Engraved in my chest

Like a cancer
We will never
be able to treat

We pray
We hold on
We fight to the bone
We grasp for air
Like we are drowning
We do what we must
Just to float along
But the thread holding us
together is tearing

I promise you angel
we will fight
No we will not give in so easy

We scream
We scratch
We bite

Fighting for this love
No longer thriving
Nor alive

And neither of us
can even remember why

Must this end
come so shockingly
Must it burrow its filth
in every crevice of our lives

If only we could
step away from this
to see our own hearts
burning

Maybe then
we could loosen our grip

But oh,
darling

I love you so.

I would rather crawl
up inside of you
find my own rotten demise

Than to sit on a roof top
On a beautiful morning
and watch the sun slowly rise

Somehow
Something so gorgeous
now a hideous sight to see
Without you by my side.