Is it worth it?

Love. When you are first on this Earth , your guard is down , no wall is up. Because you don’t know what love and what hurt it brings. Soon you start to date. You start to love. Then comes the hurt.
Slowly a wall starts to build. A wall with nicks and cracks. Chains and bob wire. Locks but no keys.
All the pain built this wall. All the hurt , the loneliness and despair. The wall builds so high , so strong. You can’t even find a way to get through it yourself.
You start to question your every day. Every move you make , step you take , breath you breathe. Will it matter to anyone?
This wall is now more like a tower. Hovering above every passer by. Leaning and pulling at the seams of your heart. Tugging at you. Breaking you. Crumbling. Dying. You’re falling apart. Finding it hard to even think of ever finding love.
You know how it hurts. How it feels to be used. Sitting in the dark , alone , is now your motto. While all your friends laugh and have fun , with their newly found loves.
Then finally after what seems like decades , a boy/girl comes . They finally feel right. You slowly start to smile again. They work so hard to take down this wall , the wall you’ve known for what seems like forever.
Finally it’s down. But once it’s down you realize , this person you know. Is the person you knew. The person you love , is the person you Loved. They hurt you so bad. So bad it burns every organ in your body. You can’t take it. The wall then returns. This time stronger. You won’t let it happen again.
But this time you have to ask yourself.
“Is it worth it?”