One old ...soliloguy

                                               blah blah blah black sheep


one chick says to me:
'we all want the same
unity, unisono, unisex, harmony and such beautiful stuff...'
i wondered upon it since all i know
in friendship
is kneeing for keen perception
is void of tight connection
is competition of egos
and never mutual pronunciation
of the current points of dissatisfaction
i might be wrong  
when I claimed such
quality in kinships
like in song
'missisipi goddam' Nina Simon has spelled..

to certain point when we need sincerity
it begins fair of cynic and vanity
yet permanent restraint in the depth of themas
as if we want just being jolly and see no evil

how many goodies have you scribbed
asks me this chick
i say: just single
two words: "FREE PIDGIN"& however
hard to imagine to you
but this buffoonery, this innocent graffiti cost me my personal freedom ..!

there are quite few grim stories hidden
in just one human trial to break free
but to say 'em
one need to feel cozy in the suspense
of grief..

otherelse there is no way
to convey to your vis-a-vis
in vivid way
the arid fact
that INDIVIDUAL FREEDOM IS TOO FRAGIL
while RESISTANCE IS ILLEGAL
2011