Passive Aggress-Her

I take pleasure in the Masochist you are
The pacifist I am
being in the midst of missing the insanity in the unwritten laws of fate
That's probably
what made me look at you like a soul mate
yet you treat me
like I'm some playmate
maybe the trust i lack is repaid in lust
but rather than reminiscing on important dates
You try & dictate the truths you share
Until honesty combusts
maybe my love for you is exactly what you hate
& your uncomfortable because our connection is rare
It so unfair
Us being the seemingly perfect pair
But you can't reciprocate
All you can do is sit there& fixate
on your power to penetrate hearts when you go deep
Even though feelings never seep
Cuz your prides locked down
Even though no one can compare
To the glare of our light when we shine
But you find
your depth is clouded & you can't focus on just us
but yet I focus
On the lack of hesitation & the sudden urgency to have you beside me
Inside me
Perhaps that's where i went wrong
why i can't sleep
why can't I be the one who calms your thoughts
The one who peeps what's going on without you making a peep
the one you you can truly keep
your keepsake
your backbone when your grind outweighs your strength & stress prolongs
I wanted to be your right in a handful of lefts
When you veer left
But you've left
Me
To be a victim of your good
& a slave of your bad
It's a tad bit sad that you let this passion for you pass
& you didn't think to be agreesive & address the home in my heart you use to live in
I'm forgiving you for her
Not for you
Next time don't pass her to get past her
Love isn't just something to do