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God, You Say It's not My life To Take!
God, You Say It's not My life To Take!
Not to feel such pain, what a gift that would be... To cry no more of My broken heart...
Knowing I am left in my own grief, that cuts deep down to My soul...
Only I can feel my pain, Numbness I have wished for will wash it away...
Seeking to drown my sorrow, I pop a bottle or two of pills, chased them down with a 5th today....
Awe such Numbness that I wished for will come over Me soon..
So much pain, I will feel no more... Cause I have wished to just fade away...
Many times have longed and hoped for such happiness... Yet to only be stained with sorrow and pain...
Awe, how numb I have wished to be... No more do I cry of My broken heart..
No more grief I feel cutting deep down to My soul... I no longer feel such pain...
For I am finally numb and fading away...
Awe, damn You found Me... Why won't You just allow Me to fade away...
Seeing and hearing the lighted sirens taking Me, trying to save My lifeless broken soul..
"God"
Why couldn't You just allow Me to have stayed numb and fade away...
Are You going to heal My broken heart and take away such pain...
For You have kept Me from dying today...
Fear that pain and sorrow I will feel once more... No longer numb and fading away...
Oh God, how numb I still wish to be...
You tell Me that its not My life to take... That pain and sorrow We all must feel, live and face...
So We can find the strength to endure till We finally feel the love and happiness along the way...
"My precious child"
One day soon there will be no more pain....
I promise You...
Love, happiness and joy will take its place!
Life on earth is too short as it is... Embrace Your sorrow and pain...
Accept the life I have given You and live it to it's fullness...
I will walk and help carry You, when You are too weak...
Just so You'll find Your way...
And with Your soul completely in it's place, I and Your love Ones will rejoice when You walk through My pearly gates...
For It Has Never Been Your Life To Take!
Not to feel such pain, what a gift that would be... To cry no more of My broken heart...
Knowing I am left in my own grief, that cuts deep down to My soul...
Only I can feel my pain, Numbness I have wished for will wash it away...
Seeking to drown my sorrow, I pop a bottle or two of pills, chased them down with a 5th today....
Awe such Numbness that I wished for will come over Me soon..
So much pain, I will feel no more... Cause I have wished to just fade away...
Many times have longed and hoped for such happiness... Yet to only be stained with sorrow and pain...
Awe, how numb I have wished to be... No more do I cry of My broken heart..
No more grief I feel cutting deep down to My soul... I no longer feel such pain...
For I am finally numb and fading away...
Awe, damn You found Me... Why won't You just allow Me to fade away...
Seeing and hearing the lighted sirens taking Me, trying to save My lifeless broken soul..
"God"
Why couldn't You just allow Me to have stayed numb and fade away...
Are You going to heal My broken heart and take away such pain...
For You have kept Me from dying today...
Fear that pain and sorrow I will feel once more... No longer numb and fading away...
Oh God, how numb I still wish to be...
You tell Me that its not My life to take... That pain and sorrow We all must feel, live and face...
So We can find the strength to endure till We finally feel the love and happiness along the way...
"My precious child"
One day soon there will be no more pain....
I promise You...
Love, happiness and joy will take its place!
Life on earth is too short as it is... Embrace Your sorrow and pain...
Accept the life I have given You and live it to it's fullness...
I will walk and help carry You, when You are too weak...
Just so You'll find Your way...
And with Your soul completely in it's place, I and Your love Ones will rejoice when You walk through My pearly gates...
For It Has Never Been Your Life To Take!
Published 11th Apr 2015
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11th Apr 2015 11:17pm
interesting poem - nice concept of life ownership being an atheist I can still appreciate its content
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