Beast without the Beauty

Allow me to apologize in advance for all of the trouble that I'm going to bring towards you,
because despite your disagreement,
this is the truth:
I am a beast without the beauty,
on a mission to destroy all of which gets in my way.
I was built to be numb,
I was programmed to feel nothing,
I lived my whole life alone,
building my walls to the greatest extent..
but then you came along;
hurdling me into a volcano of self destruction,
as I melt away all my confidence,
as I tear down my once so sacred wall,
all of my remaining sanity slowly depletes,
and now without a wall between you and I
it's almost as if I have no other choice.
My cannibal like instinct kicks in.
I've set you into my trap.
I go in for the kill,
lunging with the force of a woman
hidden from the truth since she was just a young girl,
releasing all of the hate
and hurt
and betrayal
and fear,
all of which she couldn't let show.
Until now.
and as my Once Upon A Time comes to it's much anticipated end,
here's the beginning of your not-so-happy ending.