Opposition to resistance

With moment arrived, head space and time, clarity of visions comes peace of mind.
Intervals of sobriety followed by incessant drug use, comes perception of immortality an infinite youth.
The decay of provoking and tantalizing thoughts, replaced by pharmaceutical endeavours and costs.
All my evil travels through a needle
to amplify my pain, simplified yet amplified my battle becomes mundane.
Following through seems something I can't do, senselessly destroying when my fees come due.
The frailty of existence space and time, conceiving I would comprehend my life is on now on borrowed time, I cannot relate, I will never unwind for I have paid in blood for my self-loathing crimes.