My Essential My Plea

my essential my plea
Of  my inner self of what makes me who i am and the complete slave i wish to become
and why i hold fast to my beliefs!
i kneel before you all, crying out to you. Hopa please hear my inner plea of who i am and long to be. in hopes you will better understand and know of me. i cry out once more, to say who i am is not just because of how i was raised nor of cause of my past that barbarically explored, abused me. but is because i believe and willingly accept who i am and to become what i want to be.
first i am human, a shell of life that breathes. not perfect in anyway shape or form, but will always strive to be. as a human error and mistakes made is my flaw. all i ask, and beg of thy is hopa please do not con-dim me. again first i am just simply human. although i am human, my inner beauty lies deep within me. but at the same time is plain and noticeable for all to see. not only human but submissive in pure true nature of my inner being. in hopes of one day to kneel before the One that is worthy of what i offer of whom and what i am in hopes to become complete. yes, again i cry "i am submissive", seen and titled by many. submissive "slave". awe.
lowering my head as i kneel before you all. not meaning disrespect and nor am i ashamed. yes, i am submissive "slave". and proud to be true to my inner self. but yet i am not trained, collared and, or owned, by Whom is found worthy of my submission "my inner self"."not yet am i complete". you ask of my essential, my inner self. "MY BELIEFS". which is and are to be. The Spirit above the heavens created and gave me to this ina urth "mother earth" to my Ahte and ina "Father and mother", and...or tsidanalu "family" to raise, teach and guide me. but no matter of their nurturing. "Good or bad". it is my beliefs and my love of exploring and loving, living life as i see fit that the "Spirit so gracefully allowed and has accepted of me". all "He, the "Spirit" asked in return, is that my faith and belief in Him remain and grew, grows strong. always being sure to be true to not only myself "my inner being" but as well to others. so they will see, yes i am human. "a human.... submissive slave" that has, honor not only in herself but as well that her/my honor of being honest and true will be seen by all.
again, i cry out. even of my strong faith in my beliefs, and that i wish all to see of them. does not mean that my beliefs is to be forced upon others. for we all have different beliefs. wish further to share of my beliefs. utterly speak, i believe to always treat others as i wish them to treat me. with "Honor and respected". further believe to live life in truth and never make promises that you can not keep. "FOR NOT TO DO SO IS THE SAME AS LYING” BEING UNTRUE". i believe as all humans, we have much to share and maybe teach to one another. BUT to never force our beliefs and ways upon another. i further believe that we all should be kind to ina urth "mother earth" for the Spirit so gracefully created her for to shelter and protect us all. to me, i never take or expect of her more than i need or that she offers to me. again i believe we all are to submit never to defy our Ahte...ina "Father....mother and, or tsidanalu "family" for their guidance, teachings and support. no matter Good or Bad. but to learn from their ways. so in hopes of being different, or the same but always be honorable and true. as a female human being, again with flaws. i believe to submit fully to your inner self no matter what of its form. and to seek the guidance and teachings needed throughout life so to honor, explore and respect it. so that you may teach or willingly submit it to another so that you will find yourself complete and for filled with....of your inner self.
as in my case, again am human. but as a human submissive "slave". i believe and hold fast, to my nature willingly. not only in my submission to obey, but in giving my awe. "mind, heart, body and soul. to the One that has been found worthy of my nature "my submission "MY INNER SELF” that in hopes He will find me worthy to kneel before Him and to submit my awe, willingly with love and the utmost loyalty and devotion. for in return, for His guidance, protection and teachings not only of His discipline so i will learn self-discipline and to serve and please His needs and wants. but that He will see my love and respect of and...for Him. in hopes He will love and respect me and the gift of my submission that i lay at His feet. again not only as a submissive, slave but as a "human submissive slave". in hopes that all that has read and, or has heard my plea. i Thank of you all for taking the time to hear and, or read.