Him And Him

In the depths of sorrow i see you there
you make me feel like im speical
but yet you try to prove your suposive love with death
...cut by cut...
You said you want to slit your throat because you wanna see me?
What? Why?
if you did love me,
proving it by death or pain doesnt work
you make me sad when your sad
i hate that so much cause you know it hurts me... 

Then theres him in the light and shinning
to gide me throw my pain
why i left you?
i have no idea im very stupid...
i want to be with you not him...
....I love you....
and i do like the other guy
im dating him and all
its just i dont think hes right for me...
you the one who is my shinning light
 my love the one i would do anything for...
 the one who truely has my heart....