The Concept of Glue

I' m not good at speaking words
My brain process, a tad absurd
No courage left inside this shell
Just an empty tortured hell

The thought of what could have been
A fantasy concealed within
As trivial as it might seem
My wirings a part of me

I have my struggles and work them through
I keep my life together with glue
Glue is the concept of pushing on
Learning my problems and staying strong

A mental break is all it required
To help me realize this infectious fire
Misconceptions of what is real
Making it hard for me to feel

Yet here I am, still wondering why
My two best friends hypothetically died
I tried to make contact and understand
But no reply left me in the sand

I'd like to talk and see your side
But every attempt you seem to hide
Just a simple reply was all I need
But with no words I sit and bleed.