Dieing inside killer love in you i found

 
Why am i living , why am i here
Why is this happing to me I'm drowning in my tears
I say I'm over it you and your evil mind games yes them too
everyone that asks of course I'm well over that shit my words Just lies yes i lie and hide the truth
Tell myself the past is were you are aw how i have learned to make my smile hide the pain inside I'm torn apart walking around no propose every inch of me has died threw time your constant mind games Why has it gone this far you cant help yourself i swear it you cant  aw look here was go again no you dont love me but your states yes more bullshit More lies twisting my mind again aw please why do you do this to me im drowning in the tears i cry inside
You told  me you've no love its something you cant do yet leave me a lie in code you really cant see the pain you cause we both know its lies never have you said i love you
Not even threw years of me always remained  by your side its all about you thats right im the one who just lies each night wondering what i did to deserve this pain you serve up each and every time, any other female would have chased you to fuck  
But I'm a fool no thats not true im just in love with you well not so much anymore you have chipped away most of it threw time aw this pain of letting go of what i thought was mine shit it hurt  yeah
Aches each time i think of you,
Why cant i stop loving you
Why cant i stop this pain
Each time i think of you I'm reminded i t was a game you  used my heart in your silly fucking games 💔 why what did you gain
For what i don't know from kids av had your back i only hurt you with my words i was just lashing back i couldn't turn the other cheek
The words you said the words you sent your a fucking jeckle and hide,were we ever meant  why do you care more about the worlds point of view guess what theres no one in this whole wide world who can or ever will love you for
You or as i used to  nope never not like me go on look its not something you will find
It doesn't mater  who really cares, the damage is dun i gave in yes you have won
My screams amazing i have became never showing that im dieing inside let me sleep,
Let me pray why please why has loving you , left me this way
Aw let me pray you don't care you never have or did
To buzzy chasing  that ass and tits
Cant you fucking see I'm bleeding out torn to bits please god why did i give this man my heart then the knife to cut it into tiny bits
I will still care for you right till the endv but now me I'm just a broken hearted person hollow inside
PAIN i have lived in for half my life WHY god are you telling me hang on give it time
Theres no love from this mans heart iv searched a million times aw shit i forgot im not good anuff for your world viewing trophy on the arm time  I'm just the one that loves you,
i always have guess ill just lie here and watch you leave yeah you can see a slut none stop devotion too every slut in town
sweet talk them in front of my eyes  aw you hurtful man why have i let this go in so many times you will never  see me cry
no not now
Not ever
No not me ,
No not i
aw please why cant i just die spinning dark thoughts in my mind
why did loving you cost me my life,
Why did a love a man who only ever fucked with my mind thanks for killing our love i had so much for you way back in time pain keeps cutting away any time i think if us and what you chucked away
let me dream I'm with you one final night writing this poem still makes me love you
Then i remember and feel its pain good bye
Its time i can never go there again or that will be game over God why cant i find someone who give out love like mite the real stuff not just sex drungs sluts and wine kinds worlds turned out a evil pointless place let me sleep till i dream of a better place ........