Inside out

Everyone is moving fast
while I am standing still
As the days pass
I remain where I was before
dissatisfied and spiritless
I am even becoming delirious
I can't be taken serious
for there is nothing left of me
I exist but that is all
A word means nothing unless it is given meaning

You are filled with life
Feeling,
emotion,
you're blithe
with spirit waiting to be released
but me,
I am empty,
reclusive,
solitary,
and it's not fair to me

As time passes
My thoughts are becoming my reality
It's clear to me that i'll never be free
My insides are pouring out of me
I can't hide any longer
you can see the full me
nothing but black contagious bitterness
is left to see
I am finally free

I begin to approach the light
not from above
but from below
this is what I have expected
the force is too powerful to fight off
I have entered another world
It looks like my thoughts
It has all become real
My mind has fully taken over this time
What I felt inside
Is no longer inside
It has taken over all around me