Imaginary

Its not that I changed
fantasy land of what
and a glow hope I swallow
one rainy cold January
you left me alone
and now I don't care
could you blame me?
Would you?

Make me different
so different how long
we long to forget
alcohol and cigarettes
but its a pipe dream
now paint me in crimson
and leave me a longing future
to plead with angry denial
and see the other side bleed
the other side freed
one to many at last
conquest of conquer
two big eyes
watching me



Fly away my imaginary
stay away my imaginary
keep me up my imaginary
my first and true
just keep beating my imaginary


First love and last
live to breathe
I wrote you long ago
just to let you know
how I longed for normalcy
now I shunt its presence
thanks to you
my first
imaginary