Beta Wolf skateing on ice

With speechless days getting more frequent, I do not think smooth sailing is an option "Has fallen to silence and mumbles" Is literal. Only question is if it is slowly being caused by Traumatic Brain injury, Diabetes Mellitus type II, stress, depression, or congenital cyst in the left temporal lobe.

That becoming suddenly poly again in 2012 (I want Raven and Gaia to know each other and be friends, I want to be a distant (1.5 hours one way without traffic) part of Raven and Samwise life) in the middle of a monogamous marriage put near terminal stresses on it... and I can feel my impulse control fleeing at perhaps half the rate of my speech.

It took an act of will to not go to the memorial service. I wanted Gaia with me to protect me from my self.

Now neither Gaia (my legal and sole wife), nor raven (an ex poly wife during a previous marriage .. sorry, ex "roommate" if one of her husbands relatives ask) want any thing to do with me.

It has taken since 15 Nov 14 for Gaia to forgive me. I do not think Raven ever will... but she will probably destroy my life again in 2018 if the pattern holds.