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Not Any More
I used to be afraid off:
Great big hands, not for claps
Just for nips, punches, pokes and slaps
The leather belt to beat my back
The zip, the whip the stinging thwack
The scream and shout, the point and stare
The strangled throat, the gasp for air
Knees that kneed, Feet that kicked
Abuse dressed up as “being strict”
Thrown about, pushed around,
Dragged, screaming on the ground
Arms and shoulders crush and shrug
Never really learned to hug
Kissed only by a hand in glove
And never ever shown love
No longer scared of big bad Jim
I’m scary now and bigger than him
Great big hands, not for claps
Just for nips, punches, pokes and slaps
The leather belt to beat my back
The zip, the whip the stinging thwack
The scream and shout, the point and stare
The strangled throat, the gasp for air
Knees that kneed, Feet that kicked
Abuse dressed up as “being strict”
Thrown about, pushed around,
Dragged, screaming on the ground
Arms and shoulders crush and shrug
Never really learned to hug
Kissed only by a hand in glove
And never ever shown love
No longer scared of big bad Jim
I’m scary now and bigger than him
Published 20th Jan 2015
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Anonymous
20th Jan 2015 9:54am
I love this, as u know I relate to this abuse all too well! Like u said, they are insignificant now we have grown and they are old. Wonderful strong write my dear friend :)
20th Jan 2015 1:58pm
thank you so much :-)
It is a real sadness that so many people share these childhood experiences - us survivors must stick together and tell the world.
:-)
It is a real sadness that so many people share these childhood experiences - us survivors must stick together and tell the world.
:-)
21st Jan 2015 8:39pm
So, I wonder about the last line of this poem. It seems to infer that you have taken on his aggression. That's probably not the case as you are obviously a super wonderful person ;). But I think the last line certainly adds a different perspective. This a nice, gripping write, David.
21st Jan 2015 10:47pm
the last line was kinda inspired by school days - lots of boys used to talk about going back to school when they were bigger to get revenge on some of the stricter teachers - none of them ever did - lol
Glad it gripped you ;-)
Glad it gripped you ;-)
22nd Jan 2015 6:31pm
in days of fun somewhere this horrible play also played like demons with kids, this ruthless heart
also god has created for why?
also god has created for why?
23rd Jan 2015 2:15am
22nd Jan 2015 6:45pm
Gripping, thought-provoking ink. And I really dig the rhyming scheme. Thoroughly enjoyed
23rd Jan 2015 2:16am
