Through the Eyes

Lustful thoughts conceived by the mind.
Selfish thoughts of a next time.
Chaos breeds from deep within.
Anarchy reigns as the brain spins.
Heart aches for another chance.
The soul begs for another dance.
Limbs shake in vengeful protest.
Your memory conveniently disregards the rest.
Saliva conquers a very desperate mouth.
And a pathetic you considers ignoring your vow.

Life contorts from beauty to the beast.
Self desires playing host to the demon's feast.
A beautiful sunrise becomes an annoying light.
A glorious sunset brings on a terrible night.
The magnificent mountain blocks your view.
The snow capped mountains disgust you.
A bright blue sky is simply too rich.
And cloudy skies remind that your life's a bitch.
Green grass grows prominent and proud.
All you can hear is that the lawn mowers too loud.

Wasting away your gift from God.
Dreams consist of the slightest nod.
Boredom devours the idle brain.
Freedom invites all the deepest pains.
The smallest flicker of another play.
Greedily your promise gets in the way.
The only medicine that cures it all is banished.
Not to worry, a little drink can undo the damage.
If not a drink, just a line.
Anything to leave my reflection behind.
Worst situation comes and I'll just smoke.
Realizing now my life's a joke.

What is purity?Have I ever had it?
No. Looking through the eyes of an addict.