what it feels like...

Do you know what it feels like to have to force yourself to dream?
When your body gives up, and you fall apart at the seams
When the darkness is the only thing that will ever fucking care
When you bleed just to know that you're still fucking there!
When you try to give it your all but it just hurts inside
When you no longer want to go along for the ride.
When you just want to give up and let it all end
When you don't even know what you did for it to begin!
When you just want to be loved by anyone at all
When you're trapped, locked in, boxed between four walls
When you have somebody that you want to call your own
When that person just wants you to have them alone
When you've had enough of being rejected by life
When your home alone with your thoughts and a knife
When you scar your skin just so someone will notice
When no one does, but you already know this
When you have no more skin left to scar, and life is just pain
When there's absolutely nothing in this life for you to gain
so you find a rope that can hold your weight
Tomorrows the day, the end of the wait
The day I can finally do something I like
Tomorrows the day I can finally do something right...