A thousand stories on a collision of stars

A thousand stories on a collision of stars
you lay in my heart, right from the start
confusion and illusions coverd by mess
detest . Detest. I want whats best
not sure what,  but forget me not
I need to run from the guns
sail on my ship, feel the air in my sails
away away , I will float for days
not scared of currents
not scared of rain
just scared of my own brain