Fake Smile (Keep in mind, i write poems when im greatly depressed)

I help so many people
Girls, when they're hurt
But what about my heart
It's ripped and it spurts

My friends see a smile
But it's really just fake
It hides all my pain
But inside I ache

No one can help me
And nobody tries
Cause nobdy knows
I just feed them lies

My best friends think I'm happy
But really I'm not
I can't let them see
Of all the times that I've fought

Every scar that I have
Tells of a different tale
When I let down my walls
But upon my heart, came the hail

So I'm leaving them up
I'm tired of this
I don't like what I do
This knife on my wrist

But out of my walls
I'm missing a block
Left out on purpose
So at least we can talk

I'm getting off topic
From what this poems about
It's hard to think straight
When your so full of dought

The meaning of this
Is that I want to feel love
I feel so alone
A lonely black dove

But in the morning I'll wake
My problems in a pile
I'll dig to the bottom
And pull out my smile