Mine,his,our problems

I'm not safe from him
He plots to only harm me
And I can't even stop him
Telling me I worthless
Everybody tells me he's not doing anything
Many people call him happy
Yet I call him fake and deadly
So is I just the lies I tell myself
Every time I do talk him
Lies come from him
"Fuck you and enjoy the ride"
"It's my turn"
"This time is mine "
"Here just smile"
"Unless you want the chains back on"
"Really do want to go back to the dr."
Telling him lies also
So we can just calm ourselves down