who am i

i want to be her
i wish to be that one person
i wish i was nobody
but i already am
i wish i was someone
but i hate most
each drop of blood that falls
falls for a reason
i wish i had happiness
but depression is easier
i wish i had friends
but they cause drama
and that is damned
i wish i knew why that blood falls
but it just keeps falling
i wish alot
but all i wish
is to know who i am
why am i here
where do i go
after this damned life
is finished
what will happen
when the years pass
how will i die
i wish to know these things
but i wish them
to be kept secret