no name

After the shock then the pain then the healing process... As I leave your flowery lavender presence I know what's next

My overly analytical brain compounds every detail and glance, it makes me want to round off the corners of my eyes where you seem to dance...

And your thick garden scent wraps me in circles... it's like waves, and everything you touch smells of purple...

How I'd love to drink the perfume,
so potent I get drunk on the fumes,
take my hand and keep my arm,
and use one finger of my palm,
my, well... YOUR hand sweats and pretends it's calm,
I clutch my chest and pretend I'm warm...

But you invited me in from the cold and left on the porch,
why would you lie, that this flash in the pan could really light the torch?

I'm the one who made the first move, and so innocently too, who knew?!
Today would make other days pale when I can't smell the flowers you were born from, and everyday seems to fall short of today because today, we said hello.

you dragged me back on this ship, just to drown me with your kiss

i wonder what it would be like to hold you, to hold your hand like you suggest
and took the words from my mouth like the only food I had left
loneliness is memory's cancer
it only kills if you remember.
you breathed words in my life of numbers
"let there be light; let there be colors....

It was black and white, and I was finally content;
no presuppositions or malicious intent

then like an ocean out of nowhere, like the tide coming in
you blasted the walls of the castle I built with tapped up hands.

Prosthetic limbs I made
to give me back what a person I once knew (she looked a lot like you)
took away..

(twin souls of ruin;
witches of Edmonton,
I'm just the third.
the black sheep,
the outcast of the world)

I was so happy... arguably...,
but God didn't wake Adam till the surgery,
yet you played his role,
i gave you control
and you woke me just to murder me

You felt content to tear open a scar
I don't want to feel anymore,
and it wouldn't hurt so much
if it wasn't the same spot as before

and out the corners of my sharpened eyes I spot the door
and the window I could make a run for...

So with trembling hands with your back to me,
I leave the room noticeably early...