A Cup/Glass of :):

You hold the caffeine,
The alcohol that will never touch my lips
Or won't they....?
Bubbling soda, calming tea
Adult wines and my lover, coffee.
Now just a tease.
And I hate it.
I hate you.

I hate that mostly you just hold water
Pure and clear...though I have no hope of cleansing
I would have loved it, inside I do,
But its company's a blessing and a curse
Candy-sized sweet high and bitter agony
Trying to save me

So I want you to hit the wall
And as you do, may the crash be
The screams repressed in my lungs
Oh, I know you'll feel no pain
And I know I still will
But both aftermaths remain
And that's a good enough consolation...I think

I want you to crash, and break, and shatter
Like my heart does, like I do inside
I want the remnants of your contents
To leak like the tears from my eyes,
The blood that drips from my cuts
Be the drips from your cracked pieces

And I'll hate myself for it
I hate that I could be so foolish
To fall into believing
I'll feel better with cups and glasses breaking

And then I'll smile, let out crazy cackles!
Because I AM insane!
And I am both joy and sorrow
The drunk and sober
Precious china on display
For the noble to see
And a shattered cheap bottle of beer
In a dingy alley
To be found by hounds and kittens at play.

Kill me.