Empty Boy

isnt it ironic that after theyre gone is when you need them the most?
after theyre gone is when youd tell them everything.
after theyre gone is when you REALLY need them.

forever you said then you called it quits.
wheres my forever?
you promised youd never leave me.
but youre gone.

what happened to "youre my universe"?
what happened to "i love you more than the stars"?
and all you have to say is
sorry.

id say thank you for everything but that sounds too final.
you kept me alive, now what?
you made me eat you made sure my wrists stayed peach
and not stained red.

you gave me something to look foreward to,
something to stay alive for,
something to love,
you.

but now youre gone, what am i going to look forward to?
where is my motivationto live?
who am i going to love?
well im gonna love you.

i love you to andromeda
i miss you more than there are stars
i want you more than to fly
i love you, even if its killing me
because
you decided loving me was too hard.

you promised forever
you promised youd never leave
you said you were already planning your proposal
you said you wanted me forever

but now
now how am i supposed to feel loved
or wanted
when the one person who said forever,
and made me believe it,
also said
"lets call it quits"