I am not young

 I am not young:

Did I understand?
Did I catch what you threw?
Was I quick enough
Was I to slow?
Sometimes
I just do not know
I am not trying to be anything, other than what I am
I write my thoughts
I fuck my feelings

I do this, because it feels good to me… do you?
If I am stressed I need to breathe; I just want to be used and set free…do you need the same thing
When it’s loud, and they just won’t shut up
When it’s annoying and they take and take; everything! But; what I need to release
When it’s more than I can bare; that’s when I go there… do you
I am not young, I lack nothing, my juices flow freely; I am ripe and full of plenty, for both me and you
I don’t want love right now, I got that it was unexpected… but

I want a French escapade, a silken slit of a blade, a lash of something man made, a piece of tethered bound  leather, a gaging throat with you inside of me, a burning ass from the mark your hand made,  bites that you put all over me, I want; I want: I need, you to understand me, don’t change me, or pretend to think you get it; if you don’t, to many have tried to predict me, stop and you will intrigue me, then I will make you a king, and give you it; I will give you everything, I am not talking pretend notions; I mean no emotions, it’s a life in the essence of breathing… do you breathe like me?… do you need like me?  

I am not trying to be anything, other than what I am
I write my thoughts
I fuck my feelings
I do this, because it feels good to me… do you?
If I am stressed, I need to breathe; I just want to be used then set free…do you need the same thing
When its loud, and they just won’t shut up
When it’s annoying, and they take and take; every god damn thing, but what I really need to release
When it’s more than I can bare; that’s when I go there… do you
I am not young, I am not lacking juices; I am ripe and full of plenty for both me and you
I don’t want love right now
Lori