i..feel...so..dumb

I feel wired kind of
dumb I feel like scum
like I've drank to much
rum kind of numb you look
at me and I feel need to
flee to run and hide
and get away from you
flee before you kill me
I feel like a fucking dumbass
wean I'm thinking you'll be nice
to me and all you do is beat me
in to the fucking hell of my
mind and all I see is you
why are you a bitch to me sis?
why?