Corruption

Have you ever thought,
why?
Why me?
Cant I be free?
I had no answer,
The only thing I can think about is that my wife, has cancer.
I try to speak to her,
but she gives me a blank stare,
as if the life was sucked right out of her,
I wake up,
I smile,
I look to my side,
I wanna hide,
I see a note,
Floating on her pillow,
Like a boat,
Dear Alexander,
Please don't ask why?
I am not next to you for a reason,
I always think,
I will never please him,
I am your wife,
always and forever,
I did this outta love,
But now,
I am above.
My heart sank,
I searched for her,
she was in the bathroom,
I cant breath,
her blood from her wrist,
is this a dark abyss,
why?
She's breathing,
She looks at me,
"What a ride huh?"
I cant breath,
I am so stunned,
I love you!,
I screamed,
This pain infected me,
like a dangerous famine,
I love you!,
Look honey,
she said,
I picked her up,
and laid her on my bed,
I grabbed the knife,
Looked at my wife,
and said,
what a magnificent life.